adulthood:
engineering is hard and makes u give up sleep
sometimes sleep is more important than being good at things
failure is an option
so is not giving a fuck what people think and just doing it anyway, but, you know, respectfully
the world would probably be better if everyone made a greater effort at respect
the cure to persistent acute depression could very well be spending a prolonged (months+) time away from all social media and internet distractions and going outside instead
life is a continual process
there are no answers
sadness still exists but it’s ok i guess
keep friends who intentionally reach out to you very very close and never let them go, they are too rare to be wasted. like give them space, but give them top priority in your life
honestly cats are still the best thing in life
also bohemian rhapsody was nice. there were cats in it. sorry for the spoilers.
Yes, idk, Yes, Yes
Well I Can Take Solace In The Fact That Supernatural Has Changed Even Less Than I Have In Five Years ~*~*~*~*~*congrats guyz*~*~*~*~*~
becoming a Fandom Dad/Outdated is checking ao3 for the longest fics out of curiosity and being surprised that there are 44 fics over 1 million words and none of them are supernatural
1) i have made around 30 friends this semester and it wouldn’t have happened if most of my friends hadn’t cancelled around 3-4 weeks worth of hiking dates
2) it wouldn’t have happened either if i hadn’t decided to start tackling every fear head-on
- afraid of talking to people? join a school ambassador’s club. talk to people before the panic has a chance to set in. swallow it when it does.
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i have a passable social personality and can screech my way through any awkward situation. refuse to bow to social pressures and expectations
- afraid of snakes? hold the ones the students brought for exotics day.
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snakes are chill, like legless heat-seeking kittens who just want to hide in your armpit
- afraid of rejection? wear whatever’s fun, follow some trends, look ugly, be honest.
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rejection still hurts but i can reason with myself instead of being frozen by it. i don’t feel paralyzed with obsession over every little thing, i have some room to breathe.
- afraid of self-reliance and safety? commit to a long term goal (like a thru-hike or other meaningful and obtainable accomplishment).
- doesn’t matter if you follow through on it. just that you had honest intentions and an intent to follow through. i am knowledgeable and confident and even an expert in certain areas of interest and just having a goal has lead to other things.
- afraid of driving? drive into manhattan and find street parking.
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driving still fucking sucks, but i’m also the best driver i know. driving still sucks though. i like it when i dont have to do that. some fears can’t really be beat, only reasonably managed. my stress-bearing shoulder hurts less often tho, and i did it and survived and it was less dangerous than i imagined.
- afraid of heights? start climbing.
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i’m a decent climber born from genuine and patient effort and the higher i go the more trust i am able to place in my own abilities and it is honest to god the best community i have ever been a part of (born from the necessity of trust, teamwork, and communication)
- afraid of the unfamiliar? join the outing club and sign up for every trip.
- i have tried so many things i wouldn’t have been able to try or ever wanted to, but i enjoyed them anyway, and even the ones i didn’t (caving is wet and tight and stinky) i still spent laughing with other people, and i have made so many friends who love to do what i love to do, and while i still worry about moving on and losing friends and having to make more, i realise that i have made 30 friends in 3 months and these are not the only people in the world i would be happy being friends with and i just have to look in the right places.
i know being on here the question is “is there fun besides tumblr, what did i do with my day without tumblr, my life would suck without tumblr” but i have never missed this website less. there are great people and great things and sometimes great ideas here, but there really really really is another world outside. maybe at some point i’ll come back in a lull, but i plan to never lose sight of how much better i have been feeling since making the decision and commitment to improve myself and find ways to make life mine, claiming and chasing instead of just passively receiving.
im beginning to think the answer to the question “respectful straight man who pays attention or gay man” is almost always “gay man”
also someone PLEASE invent a line of vegan junk food like ok i get it ur largely marketing to a ~healthy~ audience but sometimes an exhausted backpacker wants to just show up and stuff a burger and some fries slathered in ketchup into their face and finish it off with a milkshake and some mac and cheese and a whole bag of potato chips
hashtag make disgusting vegan diners a thing in every town so i can stuff calories in my body as fast as possible thanx